I don’t know when i felt like this, day by day i realized this feeling has been growing till now..  I have tried to be more close to you, but i thin’ that so hard, feeling hopeless sometimes. Wanna stop but another part of this heart not want, just let it but really doubt. Ask you ’bout this? I’m crazy we didn’t too close like that. Just can tell all of my friends what i have felt. One of them said “don’t give up, maybe he has something to do”, for a time it makes me pleased. Another time? Still in big mark question.

Yesterday, I thought was the best day. Why? ’cause I met them make some moment that can be memorable. Even I was bullied of them ’bout “Langit”, everything we asked always connected to “Langit”. Yeah, “shoot him”, “shoot him”, “shoot him”, can heard every seconds. I have thinking, but in my mind ” you sure want to shoot him first?”, if you do yo just have two answers, may be yes or not. How’s the probability? can less than 50% one of the question.

I am confused, what should I do. I have told to my Lord, he can accept my feeling, he permit me to go inside of his life..

Everyday I have been waiting for a moment, nothing. That is just an imagination of me, maybe I have rejected without notifications??? Should I stop now?

Trial

this is my first time, i’m writing in this blog. i wanna improve writing skill in English. So, iam just writing some line. because i don’t know what i have to write. this is just to train my skill.. another day i’ll write somethin’ with a purpose. thank you