Gath Day Meeting

yesterday, I didn’t expect anything. I just went to IFLS secretariat in SCC 3rd floor. I did my homework seriously, and didn’t see my circumstance. actually in the deep of this heart I wanted to meet him. I thought it would be the topic of our chat, but yeah… It can’t. He just red my chat, I hope he would be replied my message, chat somethin’. another side I was happy, he came to secre. I am serious that I am nervous when I meet him, wanna talk but this heart have been flustering.  wanna see him but I didn’t. too many chance for me yesterday, I thin’ I lost that chance. My friend, Mimi triggered me to be more closer, you know what the fact I saw? he was in the side of his x-special person. I heard he could laugher, I didn’t want bothered them. yeah, my friends already told me, he was give up to his x.. Sometimes I am jealous with her, I wanna him notice me like to her. how it could be like this..

you know, I have saw him brightly. people called him “Langit” or “Sky”. but I like called him Rifqi, he has good name.. I am afraid tell this feeling, i thought he already knew ’bout my feeling. When I know he is multitalented person, I am bit of unconfident to love him. yeah maybe ’cause his name is “Langit”, I have hard way to be closer, he likes unreachable of me, Should I think like that? I don’t wanna give up to love, but i wanna give up when he doesn’t move anythin’ to me. I wanna serious with Rifqi, but dunno what he feels.

I don’t know when i felt like this, day by day i realized this feeling has been growing till now..  I have tried to be more close to you, but i thin’ that so hard, feeling hopeless sometimes. Wanna stop but another part of this heart not want, just let it but really doubt. Ask you ’bout this? I’m crazy we didn’t too close like that. Just can tell all of my friends what i have felt. One of them said “don’t give up, maybe he has something to do”, for a time it makes me pleased. Another time? Still in big mark question.

Yesterday, I thought was the best day. Why? ’cause I met them make some moment that can be memorable. Even I was bullied of them ’bout “Langit”, everything we asked always connected to “Langit”. Yeah, “shoot him”, “shoot him”, “shoot him”, can heard every seconds. I have thinking, but in my mind ” you sure want to shoot him first?”, if you do yo just have two answers, may be yes or not. How’s the probability? can less than 50% one of the question.

I am confused, what should I do. I have told to my Lord, he can accept my feeling, he permit me to go inside of his life..

Everyday I have been waiting for a moment, nothing. That is just an imagination of me, maybe I have rejected without notifications??? Should I stop now?

Trial

this is my first time, i’m writing in this blog. i wanna improve writing skill in English. So, iam just writing some line. because i don’t know what i have to write. this is just to train my skill.. another day i’ll write somethin’ with a purpose. thank you

Gravitational waves ‘clues’ to black holes

Supermassive black holes: every large galaxy’s got one but how did they grow so big?

Black holes that collide generate gravitational waves. New data about the effect of these waves on surrounding spinning stars called pulsars has challenged existing ideas about the growth of supermassive black holes.

A paper published in Science led by University of Melbourne and CSIRO scientists shows a new limit to the strength of gravitational waves.

Mr Vikram Ravi, a PhD candidate at the School of Physics, University of Melbourne and Dr Ryan Shannon, a Postdoctoral Fellow with CSIRO jointly led the study at the CSIRO Parkes radio telescope in eastern Australia.

“For the first time, we’ve used information about gravitational waves as a tool in astrophysics,” said Dr Shannon. “It’s a powerful new tool. These black holes are very hard to observe directly, so this is a new chapter in astronomy.”
http://sciencealert.com.au/news/20132110-24916-2.html